speech

my focus has been feminine speech. no cursing, no yelling, remember to always say please, thank you and to ask permission from my hoh. 

uhgg who knew that this would be so hard. its hard because i love word play, i've always loved it more with a few choice words to really express what i was truly feeling at the moment. it has been interesting to find a new way to express myself when i'm feeling anything but pleased.

and if that wasnt hard enough i also have to tackle not yelling when i have a seven year old who really likes to try me. for example instead of yelling one good time for her to put her socks on her feet for the second time i had to calmly ask her six additional times before the task was actually completed. (aww, children)

but even with the loss of those things something better has happened i'm beginning to become different, nicer, more approachable, more like the person i desire to be. 

this hasnt been easy i did slip up that brought about consequences that i never ever want to experience again. however i know that honestly i will suffer those consequences again because just like you i am human i mess up and fall no matter how hard i try to walk tall. it is all apart of learning.