change?

currently i'm working on me, who i use to be and who i desire to become.

its hard to let go the past, of the person you use to be, it seems to be even harder to stop dragging that person around with you as a shield to get  you out of situations that only the old you knew how to deal with. 

more so it seems even harder to forgive yourself for old mistakes, and horrendous habits, you begin to wonder that if you cant forgive yourself, how could anyone else ever really try to forgive you. 

i had my daughter when i was young, or what i feel is to young (20). i love her to death but i wish that my blessing wouldve come to me a little later in life, my patience hadnt developed and i was stilled focused on many other things. how do i restart a mother daughter relationship with a 7yr, how do / can i become a different mother? no i havent forgiven myself yet, it was hard struggling to do it all by myself but now i have to change our relationship its time, and master is demanding it as well. 

is real change really possible?