it truly has been a while since i have last posted anything. i've been a little busy writing and going to school but on the advice of my HOH i decided to take time and post. it seems like so much has changed i am the typical mom and girlfriend. i cook dinner, i clean the house, wash the clothes, iron the clothes, pack lunches, and take my daughter to soccer and girl scouts. everything is typically normal except i wear a collar around my neck 365 days a year, and sometimes i put on my collar and i'm tied to the bed post yup that is my ideal of what's normal.
outside of what i think is normal i've been really trying hard to work on things like how i dress, how i look, speak and walk as a woman. now that i am learning and my idea of what a woman is and what she should do has changed so much then what i thought before. it has really opened my eyes to the fact that women aren't really taught to be women. no one taught me how to dress as a woman and how when you put on the ruffles and silks you act more like a lady, you speak differently, you walk differently, the way you regard yourself and hope to be treated is different. i have currently been working on that a lot i see myself as a representation of my master and i want to be the best possible for him which has helped to better me.
i have also been doing a lot of work trying to over come my jealousy as far as the other women in our lives. thanks to a lot of great poly sites that post information and exercises that help you to really look at jealousy in addition to talking to my master i can honestly say i am a lot better. i feared at first that with the new women i would lose my place in his heart that he would love me less that he wouldn't want me anymore but i know now that, that was my own insecurities and something that wasn't true. i feel blessed that i have him and even though he doesn't have an additional person i look forwarded to that blessing. i would also like to respectfully thank AKM for linking to my blog which inspired me to post again.
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What is 'ladylike' behaviour? What is 'femininity'? Some people couldn't give you an answer. As society has developed and the woman's job description has changed, so women have changed. If they are being asked to be mother and breadwinner, it's inevitable they will become more masculine. So, in a relationship/marriage, a man appreciates a woman who can retain her feminity.
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