last saturday was huge for me for us. it was the first time that i was in the same city as my master when he went on a date. every since i got back from new york city its been the three of us, me my daughter and him. last saturday morning i left his house and i returned to mine it was nice to get a message to ask me to return later on that night but i discovered as the week progressed that i felt very lost.
i was very happy that he found a woman that he liked and cared for but as they talked throughout the week on the phone and through texting i felt like, enough can i please get some time alone with just my master and i, no phone. it finally hit me that i needed some security time from him. i understood truly what the poly sites meant when they said that each couple needs to set aside time for themselves. i needed to bond with my master sexually, mentally, and emotionally. as happy as i was about the potential of her i needed to know and feel that we were/are on solid ground.
that inspired me to ask for the following one night a week with no television, computers, or telephones just me and him. this also made me think about picking up a hobby or focusing on something in my life so i'm not always wondering or thinking when he's out on a date with her or someone else. saturday night was an amazing learning experience i learned that i have to really check in with me and then i need to vocally express those things to my master.
1 comment:
Indeed. There is no relationship if there is no relationship. He is very lucky to have you, so he should definitely treat you with due respect. 'Slave' is dignified and sexy but 'doormat' is not.
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