i am

at twenty seven i have always struggled with who i am, what it is that i stand for and what it is that i believe. now more than ever i feel that its important for me to write it down and start pulling things together. 

i am typically more quiet than i will ever be loud. i feel for everyone and everything, (my master's ex-girlfriend i feel the need to reach out and help her to feel better and to find closure but i'm not allowed). in order for me to really function at my best i need boundaries that are set in stone and consequences if i ever go outside of those boundaries. 

i believe that my master/hoh/daddy is the head of the house. i believe that despite my making my own money that he is in charge of all spending. i believe that what he says and the standards that he sets for his house and for me goes. i believe that he has say in everything that happens in my life what i wear, how i speak, how i behave, that goes back to boundaries i believe. 

i believe that men by nature are polygamous. i believe that for me that there is only one man and i have found him. my master/hoh/daddy does not need to ask my permission to date or to see another woman it is well within his right to not inform me at all. i may ask questions but once my daddy has said something is final i am not to disobey that. 

i see my future as one full of joy. i see myself having more children, i see us having a big house with lots of land maybe a horse ( big maybe) i see my future sister wife living not to far from my house and daddy living between his house with her and his with me. i see a family built on love, faith and devotion. 

this is who i am, and i love who i am and who i am growing into.