faith

i started last week listening to a podcast last week titled faith and the family, it was good timing as B and i started diving into christian domestic discipline. this insightful podcast lead me to two wonderful women. the other wonderful woman i will talk about later this week. 

one is Beth Moore, whose online weekly devotional forced me to look my faith in God. the weekly devotional speaks of how people must be tired from searching for something to make you feel fulfilled, it really spoke to me because i am tired of searching for that "something."

one of the things that B is requiring to happen before we get married is for me to be baptized. despite the fact that i attend a catholic school for most of my life, my mother who is catholic felt that we should have the choice to decide our own religion. it is something that i wish she had never done, because i have no real spiritual or religious foundation. i've studied Catholicism, Judaism, Wicca, basic Christianity including baptist faith. despite all of that i still feel lost and unsure of as far as which denomination i should choose but i am sure of one thing, and that is my faith in God.

i spent thrusday morning on my knees before the alter praying to God to give me a sign, show me the path that he has designed for me. i have faith that God will show me the way.